I got a basket full of lemons and they all taste the same
a window and a pigeon with a broken wing;
You can spend your whole life working for something
just to have it taken away...
But love will come set me free,
love will come set me free
I do believe!
Love will come set me free,
I know it will.

May 12, 2009

The worst emotion.

Is heartbreak.

Because if you think about it, it is just like this numbing feeling that you really cannot physically do anything about. It just sits in your chest and festers until you explode. Or worse...implode. You can try to see past it, but for is a very painful and I would argue inescapable reality.

I think if I had 1 would be that no one I ever knew would experience this emotion. Which is a pretty ridiculous wish if you think about it because that would mean there would be no death, no cheating, no lying, no growing apart, none of that bad stuff that causes this terrible feeling.

But then, I think back on the times when I personally have experienced this emotion, and I am brought to the realization that who I am today is greatly influenced by the times of heartbreak in my life. Although at the time it seemed unbearable, looking back I see how it made me stronger and more dependent on the Lord as opposed to myself...and I cannot help but be thankful for it.

So I guess that I really have a different wish. I wish that heartbreak would rarely find its way into my friends' hearts...but when it does, it would change them for the better. I wish that for every moment that is spent weeping, grieving, questioning, and wondering...there is a moment of laughing, hoping, realization, and understanding. I hope that the nights that are spent with eyes wide open are met with a picture of how God uses each and every situation we go through to mold us, and that He never lets us out of His sight...even when we cannot see His face.

I love you friend. When your heart heart breaks. But know, that when this storm passes, I will be the first one to join you with a smile in the journey of bigger and better things...