Well first of all, I think the most terrible thing that could ever happen to me is to be stuck in the middle of the ocean. Looking out at it tonight was terrifying. It is now my biggest fear.
On a more spiritual note:
I don't think as humans we will ever understand or have the capacity to understand God's ability to forgive, act justly or show compassion towards his people. Tonight I got into a conversation about Heaven and Hell (which is a topic I am completely uncomfortable discussing because I feel like I know so little about the matter...) and we were trying to figure out when a person truly "believes" enough to truly be saved. Like how it says in John 3:16 "whosoever BELIEVES in Him shall not perish..." like what constitutes believing? Because I can profess I am a Christian and think about it and "believe" it in my heart...but there are people who seem to "believe" it deeper and more authentically...who goes to heaven and who doesn't? It was a tough question that no one I have talked to is able to answer with 100% biblical conviction. We all have our opinions and interpret Scripture to mean certain things, but how do we ever truly know?
And that's why I think we are not necessarily supposed to know the answer. I don't think we can every fully comprehend how God moves in people, and how he forgives , or more tragically how he acts justly and condemns those who did not know him. It's tough, but I have full confidence that He knows what he is doing...and my job is to be in the center of his will. The God-eternally judging-eternally forgiving stuff is on Him, and he is fully able...you know, because He is GOD and all.
Also, I think that we can never understand God's capacity to move in situations where we feel helpless. I don't really have a story that I can share at this moment, but God has been doing some pretty rockin' things in my weakest and most broken areas of my life that I never thought were even possible.
I think a lot more things, but it is 1:33 AM and I probably need to sleep right now. Here is a bit of a song I was listening to that touched my heart and...yeah, night.
LF
In the chaos, in confusion
I know You’re Sovereign still
In the moment of my weakness
You give me grace to do Your will
I know You’re Sovereign still
In the moment of my weakness
You give me grace to do Your will
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