I am in that all too familiar of a place where I am trying to find my identity in things other than God. Didn't I wrestle with him already about who I should really be striving to "impress"? Didn't he tell me that I have to turn to him and be content with his love for me, before I can be content with worldly love that I so desperately desire?
He did. And I apparently did not comprehend that the first time because here I am, back again, living to be of this world and accepted by people in it.
Repeating the cycle and process of something that makes me so broken is really terrible...but I cannot stop myself. I wish I was the type of person to just get it. To just get God and his love and his friendship and to not question him in what he is doing.
This is all to revealing of a blog. But I figure no one reads it so it's fine.
BUT if there is that special someone who stumbled upon this...take a second and pray for me. Because Lord knows I need it...
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